Crackles of Sense
It finally makes a little more sense to me
Oh man ! I love that feeling after trying to find the answer to something that doesn't quite add up and it stresses you out because the rest doesn't make sense without it and suddenly the answer is there, looking you in the face ! I think that's what I love about history. The fact that it's a story, a puzzle, that you have to reinterpret to yourself and make all the pices come together in a way that makes sense to you. History can be interpreted in so many different ways, so that you're never really looking at the same story twice. And the more you look at it, the more you get out of it. I would major in history if I could do something with a history major. But sadly, no. I'll settle with taking all my electives in history. Unfortunatly. I didnt get my anthro studied, but I read it all, and am waking up at 6 to continue. I'm starting to feel better, this morning was wretched, fortunately I was at home studying however.
School is going well, really hard, but well. Some hard days and some lonely times when I have to stay home and study and stuff when I want to be out having fun, but it's worth it. I enjoy studying, as long as I am not overwhelmed. And right now I am.
Man, hearing people getting involved in the school makes me want to get back into the scheme of things and get involved in a few things, like the women's centre, or maybe some of the societies and stuff. But then I think back to grade 12 and how active I was then and I think to myself I can wait another year or so before I try my hand at any of that stuff. There's no rush. I don't feel the need to make my mark in university just yet, if ever. I'm content right now to just do what I'm doing. Minus work at parks. Sigh. Two weeks, two weeks. Then I'm free. I don't know whether I will go back, even for the 10 something an hour perk next year. I don't know whether it's worth it. That job has done a number on me. I want friendliness back, and I want to get back to a job where people aren't in my face from start to finish. I can only stand so much socialness, lol. Anyhoo, time for bed.
Oh man ! I love that feeling after trying to find the answer to something that doesn't quite add up and it stresses you out because the rest doesn't make sense without it and suddenly the answer is there, looking you in the face ! I think that's what I love about history. The fact that it's a story, a puzzle, that you have to reinterpret to yourself and make all the pices come together in a way that makes sense to you. History can be interpreted in so many different ways, so that you're never really looking at the same story twice. And the more you look at it, the more you get out of it. I would major in history if I could do something with a history major. But sadly, no. I'll settle with taking all my electives in history. Unfortunatly. I didnt get my anthro studied, but I read it all, and am waking up at 6 to continue. I'm starting to feel better, this morning was wretched, fortunately I was at home studying however.
School is going well, really hard, but well. Some hard days and some lonely times when I have to stay home and study and stuff when I want to be out having fun, but it's worth it. I enjoy studying, as long as I am not overwhelmed. And right now I am.
Man, hearing people getting involved in the school makes me want to get back into the scheme of things and get involved in a few things, like the women's centre, or maybe some of the societies and stuff. But then I think back to grade 12 and how active I was then and I think to myself I can wait another year or so before I try my hand at any of that stuff. There's no rush. I don't feel the need to make my mark in university just yet, if ever. I'm content right now to just do what I'm doing. Minus work at parks. Sigh. Two weeks, two weeks. Then I'm free. I don't know whether I will go back, even for the 10 something an hour perk next year. I don't know whether it's worth it. That job has done a number on me. I want friendliness back, and I want to get back to a job where people aren't in my face from start to finish. I can only stand so much socialness, lol. Anyhoo, time for bed.
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